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redeeming procrastinator
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Sat May 16, 2009, 9:07 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: 22: the Death of All the Romance
  • Reading: Book on James Tissot
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I've felt the need to put down in words how I feel these days. I feel like my life is in the middle of a thick fog...

I've finished my demo and there is this huge hole now. I've put so much time and energy into this, it's as if the project created a wall between me and the real world and now, I have to face it. It's so delusional, all along I thought I couldn't be happier once I'd be done, that things would come together but instead, I'm left with nothing but worries. I'm doing everything I can to get everything together but the main points of my life are total question marks. I'm still looking for an appartment and a job for the summer. My acceptance in 3D next year is nothing but secure because so many people are applying. If I can't get in at my current school, I'll have to completely reorganize my life and get thrown in the adult world without being a bit prepared...
I was in a relationship for now a year and a half and it recently came to an end. I'm heartbroken because I've never loved someone that way but this was also the last thing that offered me a certainty in the future, a comfort. It's as everything I had under my feet just collapsed in a week. I know I shouldn't worry about what I don't know yet, I'll know by the beginning of June if I can do 3D next year, but it's so overwhelming, to know that a single person, and I'm not this person, decides how I'm going to live the next 2 years of your life. I wish I could step back a bit, take some time but instead I have to be on the run to secure whatever I have left and work towards building a better future for myself.

As for my animated short, it kinda feels like a post-partum depression haha... It's been a awful lot of work but I must admit I was happy with the comfort it provided... I'll see how things will go at the screenings. Any finissants feel/felt the same way?

I feel like I haven't said everything that's on my mind but it's all I can think of right now...




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In other, more fun news, I have my portfolio website being build, I'm posting more over there

Check it out here ------> [link]

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  • Current Residence: Montreal
  • Interests: music, people, art, food, animation..
  • Favourite movie: Silent Hill, Star Wars, Aeon Flux, Memoirs of a Geisha, Studio Ghibli movies, Marie-Antoinette
  • Favourite band or musician: Goldfrapp, Neko Case, Boys Night Out, Alexisonfire
  • Favourite genre of music: alternative, experimental, electronic, rock, indie...
  • Favourite artist: One of them: Iain McCaig
  • Operating System: MacIncrotte
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod 30 GB :B
  • Skin of choice: Black croco
  • Favourite game: Persona, Tomb Raider
  • Favourite gaming platform: X-Box 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Grandma Sophie, Chihiro
  • Tools of the Trade: Wacom, Photoshop CS2, Col-Erase, Paper, Eraser

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no problem!
amazing work, by the way. very jealous.
oh, you're too kind!

Thank you :)

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Classos galerie! :)

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Phillll, jai etrangement pensé a toi kan jai vu ca [link] haha
Somehow le dude y te ressemble D:
Hahaha, ouais ya un ptit air de ressemblance

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Canadian dude with the awesome backgrounds!!! I have a new account, so I'm rewatching my old peeps!

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If you have time darling :) *tag*
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