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I've felt the need to put down in words how I feel these days. I feel like my life is in the middle of a thick fog...

I've finished my demo and there is this huge hole now. I've put so much time and energy into this, it's as if the project created a wall between me and the real world and now, I have to face it. It's so delusional, all along I thought I couldn't be happier once I'd be done, that things would come together but instead, I'm left with nothing but worries. I'm doing everything I can to get everything together but the main points of my life are total question marks. I'm still looking for an appartment and a job for the summer. My acceptance in 3D next year is nothing but secure because so many people are applying. If I can't get in at my current school, I'll have to completely reorganize my life and get thrown in the adult world without being a bit prepared...
I was in a relationship for now a year and a half and it recently came to an end. I'm heartbroken because I've never loved someone that way but this was also the last thing that offered me a certainty in the future, a comfort. It's as everything I had under my feet just collapsed in a week. I know I shouldn't worry about what I don't know yet, I'll know by the beginning of June if I can do 3D next year, but it's so overwhelming, to know that a single person, and I'm not this person, decides how I'm going to live the next 2 years of your life. I wish I could step back a bit, take some time but instead I have to be on the run to secure whatever I have left and work towards building a better future for myself.

As for my animated short, it kinda feels like a post-partum depression haha... It's been a awful lot of work but I must admit I was happy with the comfort it provided... I'll see how things will go at the screenings. Any finissants feel/felt the same way?

I feel like I haven't said everything that's on my mind but it's all I can think of right now...




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